a|one in the rain`*

..Ever walked by yourself in the rain

feeling the dampness of the air and the coolness of the water

on ur skin?

Thought that all your pain and sorrow

has been washed away?

But you're still alone.

all alone.

alone.

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

damn... seems like my posts are comingout pretty fast now... cos of prelims? haha failed physics again(duh~) but actually, i think i improved =D from F9 last year to D7 now... but still not enough!!!! i want at least a b3 lo... dono i think main problem for physics is i not very flexible ba, keep thinking one straight way... other way i dono how to apply... but why den do TYS that time feel so easy? wth... nvm^^ ithink my inflexibility also affect a bit of my maths... as for chem, guess its still ok, except the fact that i have to learn how to be SPECIFIC. english? dono how to answer paper2 properly... have to also work on my discussive/argumentative essays... anyone willing to help me? =D anyways anyone want play bball remember tell me =X haha tml thursday... shud i go back to choir? will end up with a lot of free time though, should i? highly doubt mum will let me go anyways zzz. sis is going to australia next monday, will i miss her? haha, really dont noe.. i just noe that her lappie will become my distraction xD will try my best to lock myself up in my room =X

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7:13 PM

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Tuesday, August 26, 2008

lols... been playing bball the past few days with xinhao they all, kinda surprised they didnt turn me down when i said i wanted to play, considering they noe how lousy i am. but i guess.. we're still classmates after all =D really thankful^^ anyways... back to details on basketball. seemed like i was always facing xinhao's team, he's so tall and jumps so high!! he can touch the bloody hoop =S lols anyways ytd there was this occasion where he got the ball and wanted to jumpshoot the ball and i, being the bu zhi liang li stubborn one, *rolls eyes* tried to jump-block him. and once, i actually managed to block!! haha no one knew, i guess, but b4 he jumped i got my hand on the ball, so i just jumped a little and weighed him down xD since i was just playing defensively today and ytd, so got just a few rebounds and steals... not bad actually.... made lesser mistakes than i did a year ago =D im getting better? seriously hope so... but kinda wish i could at least learn how to drive and shoot without losing the ball, im just taking and passing the ball right now...not much satisfaction xD but dont dare to dribble also =.= so nvm, will practice more and hopefully join basketball next year in jc =DD basketball really makes me feel so alive!!! i wanna grow a little taller too, so i'll be better at stealing rebounds, hopefully become a guard or point guard =S

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6:32 PM

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Saturday, August 23, 2008

Dear God, lord of the above. I wonder if You have gotten the technology for accessing the internet and listening to many people's sincerest wishes. No doubt You already have, and i can't help wishing my greatest wish will be granted. After that long period time of mooning, i realised that it wasn't all about being with her everyday and night, but seeing her happy for an eternity that's usually shortlived. Loving someone really is all about seeing them happy rite?? Afterall, You should know, since You love all of us and we often disappoint You. God, i hereby plead you to somehow rid her of those memories, those little strands destiny she has left behind. I'd give up everything i have now just to see her smile, even if it means forgetting me =XX thanks for taking time to listen to me; AMEN.

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8:55 PM

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Damn. emo-ed all the way back with my handphone.. kept trying to think of how to help, but then it hit me: "I cant do anything for you" so, lols its the first few times im actually feeling cold, and there's somethin really wrong with my right arm. had to slam it hard on something to actually get it working again T.T pfft talk about basketball man, u suck zzz =.= FUCK
anyways, ytd had tuition and i went there with wenlin... saw shermaine and joyce on the way, saw the three of them have fun while looking for bh, didnt noe where he was. feeling a little apprehensive nowadays, is it the fear? gahh.. "i dont know anything anymore"

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6:31 PM

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Friday, August 22, 2008

lols really like the new blogger dashboard. Its pretty cool now xD anyways, yesterday after the chem paper1 which was kinda ok(easy?), walked with the guys to the lan shop.. but mum dont let me play(i didnt want to anyways) so went home to close windows and played psp a while... den went out to study(yes, yes i noe i very hardworking, prelims over le still study!!!) at mac. study study study den had lots of fun again, keep malu-ing lo xD very funny, everytime go out also liddat =DD after a while, felt bored and went somewhere else... more fun again!!! my hands became blue summore, but thats ok... LOVE blue!!!^^ pfft ah, really like to tease me lo... zzz paiseh sia zzz today didnt have to go school because only bio paper,so slept till 9, ahem, and just started playing computer after doing things everyone does in the morning =X tuition later.... so now... what shall i do?

really love the times we rested on the railing,

the peace and quiet

is unnerving and nice at the same time.

the atmosphere changes so much

when ur around.

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1:29 PM

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Wednesday, August 20, 2008

50th post!!! haha next week is teachers' day already, and drawing even closer to O's again.... today was lit, really fun to do... PUCK came out!!! lucky i went online last night and saw some notes o that at www.sparknotes.com thanks sparks~ haha, i actually wrote quite long for the essays,hardly ever write so long... 1.5 page for my hand writing lehh, my small handwriting^^ do until very satisfying... tml chem paper 1, intend to KILL it!! SLAY, OBLITERATE!!! hahaha... must really do well in chem le, physics fail... my amaths and e maths dis time rather unsure.. so i gotta kill xD anyways, that word u said made me kinda happy,dont know why... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh my mind zzz

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4:50 PM

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Tuesday, August 19, 2008

had physics paper1, a maths paper2 and oral today, b4 going to study at the library. every moment spent with you is heaven =D so..its a really tiring day, all in all, but that grin is still on my face, dono why xD guess actually doing ok for my physics was kinda fun, and although im not sure how well i did in a maths, it was really satisfying thinking abt maths again^^ and oral was the best!!! i think i did well, although the hooking of my braces really caused me a few marks at reading =.= is it because of the way you make me feel? hmmm.. studying at the library was fun^^ couldn stop laughing, so RED lor =X hehe very happy now, the fatigue is worth it, worth everything bad that ever happened in my life. or the little actions that you do? haha now still reading MSND, really quite hard to remember the quotes, too many =S Have to really score though, im 90% using it as my L1R5 xD they seem endearing only when you do them... anyways, if prelims cant make it, all-out chiong for O's!! HAHAHAH xD woot, tired.. tired... nvm, thursday and friday can sleep.. tired.. tired....

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8:16 PM

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Monday, August 18, 2008

omg i think my first doublepost ever =DD cant keep it in. so happy, troubles all gone, like the vanish power O2 max liddat xDxD hurray, my braces dont even bother me anymore, kept poking me b4,but now? feeling nth(maybe cause numb le ba >.<)!! haha is this that many people seek for, this feeling of extremeties? the grin or smileon ur face u can never take off? hahaha dont care anymore,not thinking too much le =DD oh and the lyrics of the next song from HSM should be rather familiar to u all:

Start of something new

Living in my own world

Didn't understand

That anything can happen

When you take a chance

I never believed in

What I couldn't see

I never opened my heart

To all the possibilities

I know that something has changed

Never felt this way

And right here tonight

This could be the start

Of something new

It feels so right

To be here with you ..oh

And now ... looking in your eyes

I feel in my heart

The start of something new

Now who'd of ever thought that

We'd both be here tonight

And the world looks so much brighter

With you by my side

I know that something has changed

Never felt this way

I know it for real

This could be the start

Of something new

It feels so right

To be here with you

And now looking in your eyes

I feel in my heart

The start of something new

I never knew that it could happen

Till it happened to me

I didn't know it before

But now it's easy to see

It's a start

Of something new

It feels so right

To be here with you

And now looking in your eyes

I feel in my heart

That it's the start

Of something new

It feels so right

To be here with you

And now looking in your eyes

I feel in my heart

The start of something new

Start of something new

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7:11 PM

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lols raining again. stuck my tongue out to the rain, wish it was more acidic =XX haha anyways, today's e maths paper suck to the core... cant help but wish i didnt slack so much T.T mistook many things, didnt see anything at all... but at least that heavy feeling from this morning vanished =D anyways, here's a poem for u all, there's a special meaning and significance to it, so if guys can guess it... here goes:

I always say wrong things at the wrong place and time

Teacher, teacher

Teacher, teacher tell me please

why my heart is not at ease.

It's heavy, light, hot and cold at the same time;

It's hurting, its hurling and bubbling and bobbing

but outside i feel fine.

Why?

What's this feeling,

this wave of emotion that

sends me reeling

everytime.

Teacher, teacher mark my paper.

i've tried my best so if i fail,

dont blame me.

I want to make you smile i really do,

but your not giving me any chance to.

Why?

What's this repulsion;

everytime i want in

im out.

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2:49 PM

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Sunday, August 17, 2008

lols, today went baibai to my dead ah ma^^ i dono why, kinda like doing it, maybe cos my cousins wil be there and its always fun to be social xD lols anyways, ytd night watch basketball from 1015-1200. so nice siah, USA V.S ESP!!! haha in the end USA won of course, 119-71 =DD lols seeing lebron james and kobe bryant in action was simply fascinating, not to mention satisfying!!^^ hammer jams, 3 pointers and the super cool alley-oop reverse hammer jam xDxD really hope i can play as good basketball as them =SS but, haix. nvm xD anyways, been thinking a lot lately, like stuff related to the lit text we're studying now; is the singapore government like the government in fahrenheit 451? haha like censorship o.o nvm, stupid things as usual... and im i really a veryhard person to figure out? i thought im simple, since young everyone says that xC too bad, "i dont care!!" hah =X=X anyways, here's something that i've thought for quite a long time, see if u can relate to it:

Heartbeat's slowing, It's always the little things, isn't it?

Pains are growing. Those little actions that make us fall in love.

Does she love you?

That's worth knowing...

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1:34 PM

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Thursday, August 14, 2008

45th post!!! kanda slow dont you think? anyways, im gonna update my wants and wadever, so stay posted... sms or call me if there are formatting probs with the list(i cant view my own blog), thanks!!! =DD anyways, today's a maths paper 1 was really fun!!! Of course, it was kinda easy, but who gets happy when he does something easy!? haha =X to me, it was actually kinda fun to do... dono why, i get happy when i do maths, feels like..... home? haha dono, sometimes its just challenging and fun!!! was smiling the way through xD nvmnvm^^ o.o tml chem, a bit scared due to what zy and vanka said... will try my best though, hope its enough =SS

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3:27 PM

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Wednesday, August 13, 2008

late posT as usual, but OMGOMG my second piece of goodluck since july: i got A1 for my cHinese!!!! never Expected it, didnt even dare go doublecheck at the board xD Scared bEcome a b3. haha happy but.... I should have known this wasn't real
toDAY's physicS paper2 is A killer!!! to me zz eveRyone found it ok or Easy =.= guess its NoT just luck that i nEed. i just cAnt graSp when to use wad!!! whY?!?!?!oh well, at Least defInition questions are a piece of caKes to mE... zzz i was guessing my way Through tHE paper on parts i didnt noe, wasnt sure of anYtHing!!!! so now very sAd. And fought it off and fought to feel
anyways, sunday VEnt out to watch mummy 3! actually quite a humourous movie,(dono whether it was the person BEside mE or my weird humour) aNd i enjoyed it a lOt!!!^^ weNt to eat dinner and C c look look tuition after that @.@ fun day, will always rEmemBEr it, thanks, i was actually Feeling quite unhappy in the mOrning *winnks* bet u didnt REalise,my mask super thick wor xDxD anyways, so sian got back my specs(along with my vision) back today!!!^^ haha feeling high and lazy, cant seem to do work.... bye!! What matters most?!!?

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8:14 PM

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Tuesday, August 5, 2008

fk la my dad go block everything in this com using donno wad administrator thing =.= fk la!! cant even read blog now, internet slow as shit(the reports sent are long) wtf man. i can type here but cant see a shyt blog. once again, FK. wads ur problem, now i cant do any shit on this already lousy com la!! fking hell lor.cb la another bad day, SS is tml and i cant get shit into my brain. fk sia things are gonnna get boring at home(more boring then it already is,i'll give it a 1 X 10^-1000000 upon 10) zzz wa lau really want kill people liao lo. fk.

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6:39 PM

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Saturday, August 2, 2008

yesterday was Funday again!!^^ went for a maths supplementary with uncle lawrence at 5. left at 6.20since there was nth much left for me to do =DD so i stood there until 7, which is when everyone came. went for dinner at admiralty mrt foodcourt. kinda quiet this time, guess its cos... gah nvm. and as usual, i was the fastest eater =XX who says its a bad thing?my family cong xiao dao da liddat "train" me de. still remember dad and i used to compete over who ate the most satay in the shortest time =S fun wor hehe. but anyways, ate le and den went to tuition... during the near-end of our lesson, we realised that the whole tuition class were wearing either black or white!!!^^ summore like segregate wor one side whites one side blacks. hehe =X i pointed out oreo den everyone start laughing. like wtf? haha say one take pic den all rush off dono go where zz noooo. haha. eh MEI warning: stop eating ice cream!!!

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2:02 PM

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